exactly three weeks left until I finish this semester, one months for final exam- and then I'm officially graduated.

Until then, let's just finish all the business here. Too many assignment. But somehow, i'm sure i'll miss all of these.

Should i start book reviewing after I finish my studies? (Currently reading mitch albom's morrie because too many ppl recommend this book, am i soo yesterday?)

well, till then dear me.

status: menantu tak jadi umi v2.0

we were blown up by his decision. we respect that tho. to pursue study, of course.

umi: mungkin semua ada hikmah. kita tak sekufu dengan dia. awak 'rock', dia alim. kita semua nak mati. berubahlah jadi baik. nanti dapat yang baik juga. insyallah.

i should be saying that to her instead, i am not the one who broken into pieces. "kak yong okay" i said. just that. being mentally prepared for mum's decision, and now everything is cancelled, i am frustrated by 10% i should admit.

umi: nanti, kalau kak yong nak cari sendiri, umi tak halang. tapi cari yang ada agama. takda agama, apa lagi kita nak harapkan.

aku toleh kiri-kanan. hidup terlalu moden. ak patut lari ke arah Tuhan. cari jalan pulang.

by the way, wishing him (Madinah guy) the best of luck for his PhD. all my respect goes to him because he is doing something that i don't think i can do.

I believe in Him, He will lead me to someone that i deserve the best. Well, i am back on the searching road. ;)





p/s: moga umi cepat bangkit daripada kedukaan. Allah lebih tahu. Moga Allah beri yang lebih baik untuk kita semua.

rapat sebab one can be considered as beneficiary friend.

kawan rapat and kawan rapat is a different jargon.

they are not that 'baik' most of times, but they are 'rapat' for some reasons.

well, i love being the giver. but, sometime it kills me inside.

adakah sebab hati tak ikhlas?

atau salah takers; diharapkan pulangan baik, dapat yang pahit.

that is why one needs to set limit, you don't want to get hurt baby.

people might not be as sensitive (read:sensible) as you.



what should i do then? 4 years need to fly faster. i'm tired.

Salam alaik.

Well last week was a tough week for all of us. Kelantan is having a terrible flood in its history. Destroying properties, taking lives (humans and animals) and etc make us realize that He is able to do anything that He wants. Plus, we know who are the friends and foes.

I can't reach my family for days. But Alhamdulillah, everything was under control. There's not so much damages except the muddy floor (about 3 inches my mum said). With no electric and clean water, it's difficult to do the cleaning. As you can see in FB, K.Krai is the most affected by the flood where people is losing their home. Total loss.

Meanwhile in Gombak..(different story, a completely different story okayy!)



My roommate has finished her paper, and basically her Degree. And next week she will start working at EY. Time flies too fast. Looking at her, I'm not sure if I'm ready to face the world. Since I can't keep in touch with my mum these days (their phone probably out of batt), I started to realize of whyyyy she want to marry me off so badly. First, to control a girl named Amni. Second, to not let that girl from residing outside Kelantan. Third, to make sure that I have someone to lean on in case they are going for Hajj next year (I'm the oldest and that's why).

Anddddd I'm so confused right now like 'urgghhhh-can-i-run-away?'

Enough talking, have two papers in 3 days and I did not even start anything. I'm doomed.

Thats all for now,

Till then.

When the Prophet pbuh said: "Whosoever alleviates the difficulties of a needy person who cannot pay his debt, Allah will alleviate his difficulties in both this world and the Hereafter."